RAMIREZ, RYLAND OLIVER

[RYLAND OLIVER RAMIREZ]

SEVENTEEN. HIGHSCHOOL. GAY. MUTE. RYAN EHRMANTRAUT.
( RYLAND OLIVER RAMIREZ )

I SEE YOUR EYES, YOU'RE BARELY SOBER.
I HEAR YOUR VOICE, YOU'RE CALLING OUT FROM ME TO YOU.
the character

PERSONALITY.
Well.. uhm hai c; my name is ryland. and I think I'm a pretty swell person. but you know, it's all in the way you look at people. Uh, to start things off, I'm a senior at kingsford high, so maybe to a few that just.. stops things completely. and if it does, you're a horrible person for judging ): I'm seventeen years old, so I know I'm kind of a young senior, but that doesn't matter. Another important thing about me is the fact that I'm mute.. I don't like to talk. It's never really been a necessity, my parents never really listened in the first place, so I simply just never said anything, and then when i actually tried to talk, I found out that I couldn't. So here I am, signing my heart out. It doesn't really bother me though, I hardly talk to people, and people hardly talk to me, it's just the way it works out. Besides, when people do talk to me, it's not like i can respond in the way they want me to. They always give me weird looks because I'm signing at them. Well, newsflash, i don't know anything different, so that's just the way people have to talk to me.

My friends have been great though, learning to sign to talk with me, I think it's really great to have friends out there like that, but you know.. for those who don't it's okay, I write stuff on paper so they can understand. It's whatever, I'm not going to make you a priority in my life if you don't make me a priority in yours. that's just the way it is.

Also, if you haven't figure it out yet, I'm gay. Thoroughly and completely. I think girls are gross. Although they are beautiful, they just.. don't appeal to me. I'm in love with the color pink, and I paint my nails often.. I love cuddles and teddy bears and being warm. If you are a homophobe.. please stay away from me. I hate people who discriminate, and even though I can't say anything to them.. i surely let them know how I feel, and more times then not they aren't going to know what I'm saying anyways, so it makes it all the better when I'm fussing at them in sign language c;

But something that you'll notice right to begin with when meeting me.. I'm really shy.. and If i don't know you, then I probably won't look at you, or try and sign, I get nervous that people won't accept me, and I freak out. But if you're nice, I'll surely be nice back c; .

HISTORY
Ahh, my history is something I don't like to talk about. Or.. well not really talk about obviously.. but you get what I mean. My mom and dad really didn't bother me that much, I was a good kid.. in my opinion. It was just the fact that every time I said something, or asked for something, they just sort of stared.. I didn't realize why until i was at least eight years old. They had taken something.. and instead of responding to anything that I said, they would simply moan and groan. What I realized later in my life to be a serious high. My parents were drug addicts. I really don't know how I turned out the way I did.. Maybe it's because I would hide in my room.. not really doing anything but waiting until my mother or father would call for me.. they never said anything unless they needed something from me.. so I just didn't speak.

I went without speaking for so long... until the day I raised my hand in class for the teacher to call on me, and when she did, and I tried to speak.. i couldn't. I had lost my voice. And the worst part of it all.. was the fact that my parents didn't care. In fact, they seemed kind of glad that I couldn't talk, as if i had bothered them when I did. It was then that I took to learning sign language with my teacher after school, she seemed to be the only one who really cared for me, and I was able to speak again.. only it was a little different then all the other kids. Now my parents really didn't want anything to do with me, especially since they couldn't understand anything I said.

It was when I was twelve that my teacher adopted me, seeing the lack of love that I had in my family life. So i lived with her, and am still living with her, and she treats me well, I love miss julia very much, and she supports me in everything I do.. and am. I am really thankful for all that she has done for me. .

SO SAY THAT YOU JUST WANT TO RUN AWAY.
AND REPLAY ALL THE THINGS THAT I TRIED TO SAY.
behind the character

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