BENSON, COLTON ALEC

[colton]

TWENTY-ONE. RETURNEE. BISEXUAL. ASSHOLE. NATE BROWN.
( COLTON ALEC BENSON )

I SEE YOUR EYES, YOU'RE BARELY SOBER.
I HEAR YOUR VOICE, YOU'RE CALLING OUT FROM ME TO YOU.
the character

PERSONALITY.
I've heard it all before, I'm not nice, I'm a douche, I have no heart, it all doesn't really affect me anymore to be quite honest. I'm not going to give you the time of day if I don't think you deserve it and I'm pretty much guaranteed to speak my mind.. always. I don't hold back and I surely don't let people walk all over me, I'm hated and I'm loved, but most of the time people like to be in between and lukewarm with me. They want to be my friend.. but they want to hate me at the same time. I don't deal with fake people, and I don't really mind calling people out on their shit. Don't wanna be embarrassed? then don't fuck with me. I'm not generally a nice person unless I've known you for a while, but even then, I'm not really a person who tends to care. And it doesn't really bother me. I know I'm not the greatest person in the world, and to be quite honest, I don't really give a shit, I am certainly my own person, and I'm not going to fake anything. Especially not something as stupid as whether I like you or not. Maybe I was just born a bitch, maybe I like being rude, it doesn't matter does it really? I am who I am, and this is how I choose to live my life.

When it comes to relationships, I'm pretty much the best at it. My girlfriend has been with me for... a year now? somewhere in there. She's a trooper, I'm pretty sure she knows I cheat on her a lot.. but i mean. I can't stick to one, it's just in my blood, My father did it and my grandfather, so i guess it's kind of like that. She doesn't mind though, she stays with me regardless. And I don't mind that. It means I've always got someone to call when I'm bored. And if not, then i won't call her, but of course, i do nice things.. sometimes. She's a bitch, but it's whatever, she's pretty amazing at what she does, and that's why i keep her around. That, and she's nice to talk to when she's not in bitch mode. I dunno, she loves me, and I know it, regardless if i use that against her or not. How could she not though? There really is no reason to not love me, i've been good to her this past year.. despite cheating on her.. but she knows about it all.. I don't really hide it from her. She won't leave me I'm sure of it. however, i broke up with her today, so. things are just peachy now.

HISTORY
My life was normal, i mean, there wasn't anything crazy going on at home, my parents fought.. so what right? Well, I grew up around yelling and raising hell, it was pretty normal. The difference was like night and day when they split though, everything got so much quieter and so awkward. My mother got to the point where she wouldn't even look at me or my brother and sister without crying and wreathing with sobs. It was kind of hard to watch, but after the third or fourth time it kind of got old and we got used to it.

And then came the custody battles. Which were shit in my opinion, me and my sister were around the age of twelve and fourteen, me being the oldest when they took place. Honestly, I didn't give a fuck where i was going, i just needed to settle down instead of letting them toss me back and forth between houses, it was really getting old and i got tired of it really quick. In the end though, i was sent to live with my father, and I love it. He was just like me. And I loved him for it. I didn't have to pretend, I didn't have to act like I cared. He was the type of dad to be a friend rather then to be my authority, and although my mother hated what he was doing, she never really could do anything about it. Every party he told me not to drink and drive, every time I'd bring a girl home he'd tell me to be careful. He never did anything about it, and that is why I still love my dad today. He cared, but he didn't over care. It was perfect. And then I met michelle. I know my dad liked her, but it was one thing he told me that still hasn't been completely erased out of my mind, the words will probably haunt me forever, much to my dismay. He told me not to break her heart. Of course, it was stupid at the time he told me, and it kind of still is. I didn't really follow that advice obviously, because of what I'm doing, and he pretty much knows how I treat her, he still gives me that knowing glare every time i see him, as if he's warning me, but it doesn't really matter, i know what I'm doing with my life, and i'm happy with the way it's going. .

SO SAY THAT YOU JUST WANT TO RUN AWAY.
AND REPLAY ALL THE THINGS THAT I TRIED TO SAY.
behind the character

hey bitches, it's rawerface and i've been pimpin' these hoes for about too many years. i know right, it's great isn't it? need to get a hold of me? hit me up at PM, AIM, MSN, EMAIL, etc. i'm also in EST just so you know. don't need to be telling you people twice. also meet the rest of my lovely babies, too many XD!

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