KINGSLEY, SYD NICOLAI

[syd]

( SYD NICOLAI KINGSLEY )

I SEE YOUR EYES, YOU'RE BARELY SOBER.
I HEAR YOUR VOICE, YOU'RE CALLING OUT FROM ME TO YOU.
the character

personality: I'm not an asshole anymore. God that sounds pathetic. I try not to be at least. I used to have anger management problems...okay I still have them, but whatever. I have a short fuse. At least I'm not certifiably psycho angry anymore. A whole lot of drugs and a forced trip to rehab made sure of that. Not that I'm proud of it, but at least I learned how to control myself a lot better. The pills help too. Sometimes I wonder where I'd be if I hadn't gotten caught doing the cocaine. Probably dead somewhere. I'm grateful for being alive now. Most people don't appreciate it as much as they should. The doctor said I'm bipolar, which is their fancy way of saying I have some extreme mood swings. It's true. I can be totally happy one minute and then super depressed or angry the next. The pills they gave me help with that. It takes a lot more to set me off now. I'm usually nice to people unless they give me a reason not to be. I'm self-centered. I hate talking about myself. Later.

history:

I was born in Kingsford. My dad's a retired famous musician, so he wasn't around much growing up. It was cool though. I met a lot of famous people through him. Even got my own music career going because of him. My mom died giving birth to me apparently. My dad never said so, but I think he missed her a lot as I was growing up, especially with the whole bipolar thing and the fact that I got hooked on cocaine at fifteen. It took me a whole lot of mistakes and trouble to realize it all wasn't worth it. I got sent to rehab after beating the shit out of this guy for touching me during one of my shows. The withdrawals were the worst part of it all. I miss being high every day, not going to lie. I won't relapse if I can help it though. I hurt way too many people when I was on drugs, especially my dad. I won't ever forget his face when he checked me into rehab. Fuck that shit. Anyway, I got out of rehab at seventeen and ever since I've been clean. Not necessarily a better person, but clean. Got back into my music and I've been doing good with my band, though I'm back in Kingsford on a break from recording and touring. The temptations are a little much on the road. I'm trying every day at least. I'm eighteen now, though almost nineteen and I'm still slowly piecing my life back together. We'll see how it goes.

SO SAY THAT YOU JUST WANT TO RUN AWAY.
AND REPLAY ALL THE THINGS THAT I TRIED TO SAY.
behind the character

hey bitches, it's RYAN and i've been pimpin' these hoes for about 4 years. i know right, it's great isn't it? need to get a hold of me? hit me up at PM/MSN. i'm also in central just so you know. don't need to be telling you people twice. also meet the rest of my lovely babies, orion valentine!